Sometimes I just want to get away from reality. I want to be able to know, just know in my heart, what I really want to do with my life.
I want a career that I can be excited about waking up and going to every morning. A career that allows me to have some creative freedom and ability to make people feel something significant.
How do some people just know what they want to do? Some people just know that they're supposed to be doctors, musicians, business people, lawyers - or so they seem to know. At the moment I feel I'm wandering through life half-blind, feeling my way as to what I should be doing rather than what I would enjoy doing.
I would love to work at a magazine, I think. Perhaps in the life & style section. Anyone? Mindfood? Home & Living? Vogue? I'd gladly be a travel, interior design, or health & well-being journalist.
I really don't think sitting at a desk all day is my calling. I want to be busy, rushing around with lists to do, places to be, people to see. Maybe I need to put my feelers out more in regards to journalism and look my fear of failure in the face. I think I've been conned into doing what other people want me to do rather than pursuing what I really want to be doing and it's now put me in a place where I have no direction or hope for the future. That's a bad place to be.
What do you think? Do you think I'd have what it takes to become a journalist, or an assistant editor or even editor of a magazine? I feel I have a good eye for detail and the ability to articulate my thoughts.